Building Our Own Heaven

Confidence can be trapped, buried and imprisoned, inside our body, heart or somewhere there. That, to unlock that, some ways are available. To me, confidence can be unlocked when we can face our fear, have a good way of clothing, calm, loving myself, letting go what haunts me, and there are actually many other ways that, I myself may haven't discovered or known. But I believe, confidence has to be won by us, to live our life better and sharper cause, without that, it could feels like, flying thin plastic, carried away easily to, somewhere or nowhere. I think confidence is a power, that function as a support to what we believe in, to what we want to do, or dedicated to. But over confidence is a, seed of cockiness, an explosive behaviour that can be very risky like, when you get too over confidence that you can conquer something dangerous, say, shark? Then you swim to that shark, without fear, but over confidence, you hug that shark, and then somehow gave the wrong signal to that shark then, that shark turns to be aggressive and attacks you? Something like that, can be anything. It's like a boiling water you know, unstable, and out of control, that I think, confidence is chemical in a form of feeling that is an element, or attribute that we have in ourselves as a human being. You see, we have some powers, attributes within us that we can use for good, or, if we aren't careful, it might endangers, and troubles us. So we have the power that actually can help us, but actually also can, destroy us? This we need to pay attention to, to care about and not to really ignore, because ourselves are own responsibility,­ one of the first and the foremost in our life. And that self, is who we really need to take care of first, to love first, before we give feelings to another, it's better that way. Cause you know, to share happiness, we must be happy first too. That's one of the condition where we can reach the state of independence, independence of our beings to ourselves. And when we feel independence, that's when I believe a quality of true happiness exists, or if not too much, a feeling when we feel like in Heaven. Why I said Heaven? Just like bad feelings such as anger, guilts, hatred, disappointments­, boredom and so on, when we feel those negative feelings, don't it feels like hell? That we might say call that "place" once or twice, so on and on perhaps? That's just, isn't that something? Maybe Heaven is not just a place of what we heard from religions, that exists somewhere out there after the universe, after our life, but Heaven, is also a state of feeling, which sometimes we may can feel while we are in this world, a feeling of independence, cleanliness of the soul, purity of the heart and mind, harmony of our beings with another, happiness? Let us then spread positivity more than negativity, positive feelings, minds, thinking, acts, and let us be all building our own Heaven. Do you not want it?